It still hurts. I try to push it from my mind but it doesn't want to go. I hopped on a bus and came home for the weekend, just to get away from him and everyone else, but it's not helping. I just don't know why he didn't like me, why I'm so stupid as to have let myself fall without having realised it, why I was stupid enough to think that I wouldn't get hurt by only doing the physical side of things.