I came to a realisation today.
That he's really hurt me. He had a right to move on, but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt. Even if he was to come back, which I know he's not going to, I couldn't take him back. I no longer love him like I used to. I need to just focus on myself now. I'm ready to heal.
It took me a very blunt text from him that was quite harsh to make me realise that things would never be the same again. I no longer hold any hard feelings for him (for her... yeah. But that's another story). Our time together was good, and I don't want to ruin the memory of him with hate. Down the track we can be friends again.
But for now, I will just focus on me.
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The world is chaotic BUT often there are patterns.
AT the moment you are dead set against ever ever ever communicating with ultimate asshole.
Somehow, in time the hurt heals.
Then asshole fucks around old-girl, gets bored, thinks Sixteen.
He’s a seductive master so he’ll somehow weasel back.
You'll open the door a sliver, and next, Jake is hurting Sixteen all over again.
That's just the way it works too often.
He will do it because he is an abused child who abuses to counter his fucked-up-id-ness.
What he should have done is get counselling.
Instead he will prey on women for years because daddy beat him.
Fair is fair in some guys minds.
Daddy hurt me so now you will pay.
Bobby is making overtures to Rhianna again!
UN-fucking-believable that she would could should even ever say “they are talking again”.
2013 Headline – Bobby beats Rhianna to death
Agreed Anon 1.
Does anyone else find it ironic that Sixteen was so concerned that her "stupid" sister was dating a "stupid" abusive guy while she was much smarter to date jake.
Wed 2 Sept, 2009"My little sister has a boyfriend that breaks her heart every couple of weeks, yet she still goes back to him every time."
I call time for an honest apology to "stupid" sister.
Anon 2
Agreed Anon 1.
Does anyone else find it ironic that Sixteen was so concerned that her "stupid" sister was dating a "stupid" abusive guy while she was much smarter to date jake.
Wed 2 Sept, 2009"My little sister has a boyfriend that breaks her heart every couple of weeks, yet she still goes back to him every time."
I call time for an honest apology to "stupid" sister.
Anon 2
From the beginning of this blog off and on, too often it has been only too obvious that Sixteen above all else is in search of love - not just love but a soul mate. One might ask - "why?" Should you not be looking to truly know and understand who Sixteen? How many of us truly knew who we were at 16 or 19 or even 26? Until you do, you will not be able to understand which guys are good and which are "good" for you. Until then be patient. Perhaps back-off the guy thing. Go and explore who Sixteen is!
"There are only two great tragedies in life, one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it." -George Bernard Shaw.
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