Quick Update

Sorry! I've been in another part of the country for the last five days and therefore away from private internet access.

Jake's coming to my town on Thursday. We're going shopping and then back to campus together. He also has a surprise for me. I'll post what it is when I get the chance.

Me and Him, Him and Me.

Well, he broke up with his girlfriend for me, and now we're together. I couldn't be happier. Both of us are a bit worried that karma's going to come round and bite us in the bum, but for now we're just focussing on us and getting to know each other better.

Before we got 'together,' I asked him how long he and his ex had been together. I wasn't going to go near it if it had been months, but it had only been three weeks, so I felt less guilty. He told me that he liked me and the beginning of the year, and he likes me now. Is that what I wanted to hear? Of course it was. I feel silly for feeling so happy about the whole thing, but I can't help it.

We spent two and a half hours on Skype on Thursday night, and we're going to talk online again tonight. He's also coming up to my hometown to see where I live, and then he's bringing me back here, where we'll spend the weekend hanging out until uni goes back.

I'm so excited for what this relationship might bring.

Facebook Chat and Suggestive Texts

Six

Do I wait round for creep Arabian guy or do I just give up and move on?

Nick

seriously?

Six

Seriously. I need to know before I get too cut up about it.

Nick

Dont mention i said this but Jake is pretty conflicted. we both know arabian is a joke.

what I know is that he doesnt wanna do wrong to anyone and is considering a lot

Six

Either way he's doing wrong.

And I know he doesn't want to be, he's not that sort of guy. I know this. But by not cutting me or her off he's just hurting both of us in the long run

Nick

i know. ummm... I know he wants to sort this out. im tryin to help him make this decision but its hard...

Six

Yeah. I know it is. And I want him to make the right one. Just right now I feel like I'm being messed around.

And the right one for him, not me

Nick

I honestly do not actually fully know wats...

wat hes thinking

Just a little time is wat i need to try and help him with this.

I want him to do right as well

Six

Yeah. I don't care what his decision is (well obviously I do, but you know). Just as long as he's happy with it.

Yes, I am well aware that chances are, I am setting myself up for some big hurt. Karma, right? But also, I only ever seem to get the bad side of karma, so surely I should be getting some good things soon, right?

Suggestive texts:

"You should not go on an exchange next year and instead come to South Africa with me in the middle of the year."

"Maybe I could afford to do both. Or visit you in South Africa on my way back."

"Gutted. Maybe. What if you had a boyfriend in NZ and you left for the USA? Be a big buzz kill, wouldn't it?"

"I don't and if I did it wouldn't be if he was willing to wait four months to kiss me again."

"Just hypothetically you know. But I'm sure he'd be willing to wait."

But...

A text conversation:

"You look beautiful by the way."

"Don't."

"I will do what I want when I want :)"

"You can't do what you want when you want."

"Aw that sucks, big time."

"That could have been us in there corner there."

"That's insane. In a cool way I mean."

"Instead we'll just send text messages that we shouldn't."

"Haha I like that."

We don't take our eyes off of each other, while our two friends are going at it in the corner of the bar. Finally the two split off and we go home our seperate ways. I text him later telling him to come round so that our friends can hook up, and they come with noodles in hand. Jake and I go out to make the noodles and leave them to it. He leans on the wall while I fill the jug and boil it.

"How did I get so lucky?"

"You're not lucky." I stand close to him and somehow our lips find each other. He lifts me up and sits me on the bench and we kiss until the jug boils. Then, following his instructions we make instant noodles. Then, it's back to our room where we eat noodles and then while our friends get really carried away in my bed, I sit in Jake's lap and we kiss more. We talk, as well. He calls me beautiful, he tells me about my hair. He tells me that when we first met he thought I was a lesbian. I was his first crush here. Our connection's too strong for someone who has a girlfriend. He gives me my first hickey.

I feel cheap today. I was the girl that I hoped I'd never be. We're talking about it now, and I'm just trying to figure out whether we're going to go anywhere. If he doesn't break up with his girlfriend, then that's it, I'm out and moving on.

"I'm Not a Cheater"

I left town early (food poisoning and alcohol are never a good idea), but texted him, telling him that he should come and visit me when he gets back from town. He said he would, and after a few more flirty texts, he told me to throw down my keys.

Jake came up and we chatted for ages about life in general. For some reason he decided to hop on my computer and go on Facebook, and then told me to take a stupid quiz. While I did the quiz he lay down on my bed.

"Don't you dare coma on my bed," I said as I crawled over him and sat on the bed behind him.

"I won't, I won't." I started flicking him with my fingers, trying to stop him from falling asleep on my bed. He kept hitting my hand away in a playful manner, but slowly the playful slaps became caresses as we let our hands slip through each other's, brushing our fingertips over the others. Neither of us spoke. He started falling asleep, so I smacked him in a playful manner.

"No comaing!"

"I'm not. Just imagine you're somewhere else," he said to me as I got under my duvet and lay behind him. "I'm in the Caribbean."

"I'm in Tanzania."

"Tanzania, eh?"

"Have you ever been there?" He's from South Africa so I figured it was fair enough to ask.

"No, I never went outside South Africa."

"Have you ever seen a lion?"

He turned to face me and we had mindless chit chat for awhile. And then I started to run my fingers over his face, and then he kissed them. And then we kissed.

"I can't do this. I'm not a cheater,"

"Yeah, I know," I replied. He ran his hands over my cheek, and smiled at me.

"You're beautiful and if this had been any other time..."

"If I'd made a move a week earlier, huh?"

"Pretty much." He kissed me again. And a damn good kiss too.

"Chin up," he said, "you're beautiful. You are. I should probably go." He kissed me again and then he left.

I don't feel guilty, but disappointed because I think he's too honourable to ditch his girl. But if only I'd made a move a week earlier!

LBD

Last night I went to a LBD (Little Black Dress) Party. I was picked up in a 2009 V8 Holden and given champagne to drink in the back. When we arrived at the venue, the door was opened for us and we had our photo taken outside the bar. I have never felt so cool in my life. I felt like a celebrity. It was the best night in town I've ever had.

I met up with a guy that I'm kind of interested in just before we went home. He was incredibly flirty and when I told him I was going home he offered to buy me a drink to stay. I texted him when I came home and he told me to come back to town so he could buy me a drink. I told him I "couldn't be bought," and his exact message was "it's a pity you can't be bought, because I'd buy you." I laughed him off and told him he was drunk and that I'd text him in the morning.

Then I saw on Facebook today that he's 'in a relationship.' WTF (yes, I did just use that), so now I don't know what's what. Everyone said that he's always all over me so I wonder why he'd flirt like that if he's taken. I'm a little bit disappointed, but I'm not overly worried. I'm just glad I didn't start liking him more before I found out.

Swine and Mc Donald's.

The ball itself was lame, but getting dressed up and taking photos beforehand was awesome. I looked wonderful, if I do say so myself. My blue dress complimented my skin which had decided to clear up for the night.

Last night Kip got really sick (had I mentioned that we're good friends again?), and I mean really sick. His snot was orange, he was pale and said he had a headache. So his brother and I drove him to the hospital because we were worried that it was either meningitis or swine. We got to wait in the hospital for about two and a half hours before a nurse came out and checked his vitals. His heart was racing, so they took him off to do a heart trace. His brother and I started to get a bit worried, but he came back out and said his heart had gone back to normal. Finally he went off to see the doctor who said it probably wasn't swine, but was definitely a bad flu and ordered him away from uni for the rest of the week. We left the hospital at about 12.30 only to be told that his mother was driving from an hour away to pick him up, which meant his brother had to stay up to let her in. I volunteered to stay up with him, and so we drove around the city looking for ice cream. Because the roads were empty, we drove backwards around roundabouts and crossed lanes like we were racing car drivers. I finally made it to bed at about 3:00am.

My day was rather unproductive, because before this I sat in Mc Donald's with Derek, Sandra and Keith from 4:40pm to 8:00pm. It was a very good day though. Minus the swine fears.