Thursday, 8 July 2010

Pain

I thought that heartbreak would be a full body ache, but turns out it's not. It's all in my head and I can't get it out. I'm in so much pain that I want to physicalize it just so I can feel something.

My younger sister has come down to stay with me for a couple of days to keep me distracted, which is great. When she's gone I'll blog about what happened. Not that I really know. My lack of understanding of 'why' only makes the pain more unbearable. I just hope that soon he wakes up and realises what a fool he was, and how much he needs me in his life

The worst part is at night, when the thoughts of us ravage my brain, and in the morning when I wake up and go to text him, and then realise that I shouldn't.

I don't want to wake up.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Bright, energetic, beautiful, vivacious, generous of spirit, spunky, young lady - jake WILL pass sooner than later, if you let it. It has nothing to do with you. It's all about young men, moving through life making chick stops. Of course he was in love with you BUT wants to be in love a few more times until he's in his thirties.
Go to the gym, do laps at the pool, stay away from the bad "comfort" food. AND Stay away from the CuTTiNg
Whether you believe it or not in the midst of all the hurt there WILL be someone even closer to a soul mate than Jake, who will be blown away by your gifts. HEAL - BE at PEACE soon MOVE beyond Jake - in time you will see why HE wasn't the one!

Anonymous said...

Bright, energetic, beautiful, vivacious, generous of spirit, spunky, young lady - jake WILL pass sooner than later, if you let it. It has nothing to do with you. It's all about young men, moving through life making chick stops. Of course he was in love with you BUT wants to be in love a few more times until he's in his thirties.
Go to the gym, do laps at the pool, stay away from the bad "comfort" food. AND Stay away from the CuTTiNg
Whether you believe it or not in the midst of all the hurt there WILL be someone even closer to a soul mate than Jake, who will be blown away by your gifts. HEAL - BE at PEACE soon MOVE beyond Jake - in time you will see why HE wasn't the one!