Saturday, 28 July 2007

dom·i·na·tion - noun.

I like the thought of dominating. I'm a natural born leader - loud voice, relatively intelligent and most times, I listen to others. I have various fantasies involving domination, ranging from the stereotypical S&M garb to sexy spies interrogating a prisoner to Queen Cleopatra ruling over her great Egyptian empire, using her sexual prowess to entice Cesar and Marc Antony,

Why is it that I have such fantasies? I think there are several reasons behind these feelings. The already mentioned leadership is an obvious one, but as I delve deeper into the meaning behind my erotic wants, I begin to realise that it's more than just my leadership skills.

At school, I'm the bottom of the heap in my group of friends. I'm the Tom Robinson of this Maycomb County, discriminated against just because I'm a seemingly easy target. I get picked on constantly, supposedly in good humour. My female name is change to the male version and I get my hair ruffled despite the widely known knowledge that I hate people touching my hair. Here, I can clearly see the links between my school life and my horny imagination. I want to dominate so that I can be in charge, so that I can pick on someone for a change.

Perhaps another reasons is being the middle child in my family - an older sister who constantly picks on you, is rude to your entire family and generally sucks is a sure fire reason, isn't it? Sometimes I wish I could tell her to shut up/

I hope I'm not the only one out there who delved deep into their sexual fantasies, trying to find meaning in them. Let me know, kay?

2 comments:

College Groupie said...

I think it's always funny how those who are rather quiet and shy tend to be more aggressive in bed. I'm submissive, but outside of the bedroom, I tend to be really dominant. It always seems to be about opposites to me.

Kate said...

I am sort of exploring the submissive side of my personality after being with a man who exposed that side of me - that I didnt know I had!
Not in an abusive way, but in that delicious uncomfortable squirmy way that is chalenging and exciting and sexy all at once. I like your blog btw